I am praying for faith. I am on my second day of Thin Within. I know that I am being so watchful to see if it is going to work for me. It is so easy to get discouraged with my weight. I feel like this is a last effort and I am praying for God to help me stick to it and for God to give me the faith that He will give me victory in my weight loss.
I know this is where Satan always keeps a hold on me. I have to rely on God for so much and I feel like I am usually able to. Next week we don’t have orders to run my company. I am doing pretty well leaving it to God and waiting to see what he will bring. I have seen Him do so much. There is a $1500 payment that has been made every single week for months. I only have 10 more weeks to go on it. The thing is that I see the books, I know the day to day business inside and out. There is no way we have been able to make that payment every week. God has done it. Not us, not the business. He is so faithful.
It almost makes me ashamed of myself for lacking faith in any area. I can just look at my husband and I live in wonder of how God takes care of us and blesses us. We just had our 2nd anniversary. We were both married for over 22 years to other people. As much as we each went through before, and after finding ourselves divorced when neither of us would have ever considered ending up divorced, God redeemed it all. It is like he brought our lives along from that point separately and then after we had been single for a couple of years he directed our lives together in ways that couldn’t just happen. We both are just in awe and wonder of what we have together. So it is amazing to me that after all I have seen and been through with God that I can have any areas of doubt. I feel as if I am doubting me and not God. But I also know that I have laid it on God so any lack in faith is a lack of faith in Him.
I know the Thin Within program says not to weigh much, but after my first day yesterday I did weigh this morning. I lost 2 lbs. God is building my faith I know. He gave me that to help me believe. He loves me and knows that I need a lot of help and as usual He gives me the help. I just have to try to keep trusting Him and trust that He will bring the success in what I believe He has brought me to. This is a battle with my weight yes, but even more, I know this for me is a battle with Satan. That may seem overstated to someone who has never had a lifelong struggle with weight, but it is true for me.
God, help me to believe. I know that You have given me a beginning success to give me more faith. You have given me so much Father that I know I should be able to trust with out hesitation. I cannot do this on my own, but Father the times I have seen you do what can’t be done are so many. I praise you for all the daily miracles you show me. Sometimes it is hard to struggle financially or otherwise but Wow what I get to see you do. Please help me stick with the Thin Within program and help Terry with it too. I know this is so new to him, and I know that a large part of him doing the program is to support me. Thank you God for such a wonderful, Godly man who shows me his love so easily. God, please be with the people in my Thin Withing group as well as the people on the forum. Help them all to find you in a deeper way through this program and give them strength to stick with it as you strengthen me.
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