Okay so I’ve discovered (the hard way) that having a “cheat day” is something I am incapable of doing without falling down the slippery slope. I’ve realised (again, the hard way) that I need a cold turkey approach. In other words I’m staying completely away from “goodies”, alcohol and processed foods (Quorn being the exception).
I sat down and thought again about how I managed to give up smoking. I did it cold turkey and have often wished that the same thing was possible for food, but it’s hard because you have to eat to live. But when I read Tony P’s blog I realised what I need to do. Tony decided to only eat healthy food because he realised he was a food addict and no matter what it was he was going to eat a lot of it. I had a light bulb moment and realised this is what I need to do. The reason I’ve been slipping all these times is because I’ve been reintroducing the bad stuff on cheat days, getting a taste for it and haven’t been able to stay on the straight and narrow as a result. For me a strawberry or an apple won’t taste half as nice or sweet when you’ve had a bar of chocolate earlier in the day.
So far, it’s working well for me. I’m also being terrified into behaving to be honest. I weighed myself at the beginning of this “attempt” (which I hope is the last one) and realised I was the heaviest I’ve ever been and reached a weight (in stones) that I thought I never would. I looked back over weigh in records for the past year and realised that this time last year I had actually reached a milestone in the good sense (again in stones) and calculated, to my horror, that I’ve put up 2 stone since this time last year. All of this is against the backdrop of having had a gall bladder attack and bad back, all due to being overweight of course.
So I’m scared, really scared. And, just as I don’t smoke because I’m afraid I’ll lose my voice again; I won’t eat crap anymore because I’m afraid of dying young or at best spending the next few years ballooning into something I don’t recognise anymore (I think I’m already at that point actually).
Anyway, it’s all good really. I’m taking control, I’m feeling more in control and not going all crazy and over reacting – I’m just doing it.
Weigh in wise it’s a case of so far so good – I started mid week but in 3 days I’d lost 3.5lbs, which is pretty cool.
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