GGRRRRRRGGGGRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR!
excuse me, that was my stomach growling. so, i started a new way of eating today, in hopes that i will lose some weight and also break this addiction i have to feeling full. i’ve come to realize that i’m not always hungry and i don’t have an unhealthy attraction to food. what i do have is a love of the feeling of being full. you know, that fat dumb and happy feeling. the one where everything’s good because my belly says so. i’ve discovered that i will eat anything i can get my hands on to keep my tank full. if i were a car, i would stop every 5 miles and yell filler up to the service man. anyway, i’ve come out of denial and decided to do something about it. yes, i have dieted in the past and on a couple of occasions lost great amounts of weight. but i always did some fad that wasn’t helping me deal with the real issue. the core problem isn’t that i’m overweight, it’s that being full thing. so rather than do an atkins type diet where i can eat half a cow and lose weight (hey don’t laugh, it works), i am now watching calories and eating small, tiny, minute, infinitesimal, microscopic (okay you get my point) portions.
i’ve eaten every 2 hours today. 7am- 1 cup of cheerios with 1/2 cup of 1% milk- 155 calories, 10am- 4 baby dill pickles- 20 calories, 12pm- 6 slices of ham and 5 baby dills- 115 calories, 3pm- a peach- 62 calories. the plan is grilled chicken and green beans tonight. woo hoo! i know my metabolism is amped up, which is good, but i’m hungry. for real. oh well that’s my struggle for today. pray for me. i need it.
ps. starting weight – 399.4
pps. pray for my wife and family – hungry does not = happy lol, not.
Monday, August 17, 2009
gggrrrrrrrrrr . . . .
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