It’s been over a year since I started my journey…getting my life back, feeling better. I have done pretty well until this last month where I found myself at a stand still. I think I have just gotten to lax with what I eat, to lenient, enjoying life a bit more (to many calories and to much of the good stuff!). I haven’t gained…but haven’t lost either. I have kept up my exercise faithfully. I elliptical for a half hour every morning. I have golfed up a storm this summer (I am a new golfer this year) and I am very happy with my progress in that department, my HCP index went from 34.6 to 24.5…but now…it’s fall and the rain is starting…it’s going to get dark to early to golf with hubby after work….so I won’t be golfing nearly as much…I know I will have withdrawals!
I have been thinking about the 20 pounds I would still like to lose and know it will be the toughest part of my weight loss journey. I am still considered overweight and loosing 20 more pounds would put me in the normal range. I will have my work cut out for me because I know I have to fine tune what I choose to eat and maybe drop my calorie count or up my exercise. I do know I DO NOT want to gain back any of the weight I have lost…I want to at least stay here and maintain this weight…and hopefully slowly drop the rest over time. I am actually wearing the size I wanted to be, it wasn’t a size that seemed unreachable. But a size I thought I would be happy at if I got here….Well here I am and of course I don’t find myself content with a roomy size 14…sometimes 12 depending on the cut of pants (I was a size 20 at the start). I thought I would be happy and content to reach that goal…but nope, I am not LOL….joke’s on me. I do believe I need to lose that last 20 to make myself happy, I think the stigma of still being considered overweight bothers me. I find myself seeing the old “fat” me when I look in the mirror this last month. For the longest time during the summer, I was seeing a trimmer me…then somehow that changed into seeing the me of the past. Yet I am not that 45 pound heavier person, but that seems to be who I am seeing…strange huh? How one see’s themselves is really an interesting thing. The biggest and most important thing I know is that I have more energy, I can buy clothes so much easier…I am more active and my knee’s and back no longer hurt as much as they did. Those things and the memory of being so tired and feeling like a slug will keep me from going back to how I was.
Well anyway…I am here to update…post before and after photo’s (down below). I still have a year to reach my goal (which was not to be overweight/obese any longer)…I gave myself til I was 50…and I won’t be 49 until next month I just have to fine tune the food that goes in. Figure out a way to be happy with my choices and keep the calorie count down…finding products that fit in is always wonderful and I have found a few…one of them are these veggie chips, they are the most awesome snack for those who miss chips…taste wonderful and a nice size bag of them 130 calories! The hunt for products and foods that work for you…that work in keeping the calorie count low and the tummy and mind happy is on going. Rice cakes in flavors are my friend LOL and oatmeal is a wonderful food! Skinny Vanilla Latte’s are the best treat a girl can ask for …and the list goes on.
I have found the show Ruby an inspiration…and believe it or not the show Clean House opened my eyes to the “why” my house/home had gotten so cluttered and out of control…so besides my weight loss journey, I am de-cluttering my life, they both seemed kinda connected….it’s all about getting control back. Loosing my parents, having a sick child (from age 14 to present, Jenn is almost 27, she has battled anorexia/bulimia, drugs and alcohol…it’s taken its toll on my husband and I) and just life and age creeping up…I found why I turned to food thanks to Ruby and Clean House. I am a stress eater and that isn’t good, I feel I am in control when I comfort myself with food…but in reality I am not in control…but totally OUT of control. So much to think about when you choose to journey to lose weight and why you are overweight in the first place. Letting stuff pile up around you in your home is like a protective shield in a way…stuff replacing people who you miss.
Ok, well enough of all that stuff huh? here is my ticker showing my weight loss to this point…and below photo’s of the new me and old me…hoping in a few months to update this again with even better photo’s….of even a smaller more fit me.
start and one year update photo
one year update photo
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